Out Loud

I am trying, I am trying but life keeps pushing me down
I am trying but feel I’m always dying out loud
and I am lying when I hold my head up proud
and I am crying on the outside but no one’s on the inside now

And I am coping and I am coping
and some days that’s all I have
and I am hoping and I am hoping
that faith and love will hold me fast

And I’m approaching, I’m approaching
The table of mystery and blood
and I believe the story, the old old story
But I cant feel the love

And sometimes it kills me to still be
the one who will be waiting around
and it kills me and never fills me
to struggle with my faith out loud

I need it now, I’ll dream it loud
Sometimes I wish we could burn this whole place down
but it seems some how that some “now”
is always just a few doors down

I want to strike out and reach out
I want you to feel the tears I feel
but I don’t want to tear you down
just so I know you know I’m real

The tears are falling now and I am shutting down
sometimes it hurts to live out loud
But if I kept this quiet(er)
it would not just be my tear ducts shutting down

~wwb

“And I’d join the movement
If there was one I could believe in
Yeah I’d break bread and wine
If there was a church I could receive in
’cause I need it now

To take a cup
To fill it up
To drink it slow
I can’t let you go
I must be an acrobat
To talk like this
And act like that
And you can dream
So dream out loud
And don’t let the bastards grind you down” U2’s Bono – Acrobat

(maxe na erofeb thgin eht) werbeH ot edo detraeh flaH

Greek is evil, Greek is bad
They only used it
Because its all they had
Hebrew’s better
But English is best
The kind that’s spoken
In the good ol’ US
And old King’s English
1611
is the only tongue
thou shalt not speak in Heaven

~wwb

Reinventing Rock and Roll

I emptied out the contents of my pocket
found a ticket for a bottle rocket
lets catch the last anything out of here
ready to choke on any other atmosphere
fumbling for words but your not crumbling, you heard
me humming for birds who hit the ground stumbling
scat in my best falsetto and you can shake your ass
maybe put on those stilettos and we can make it last
the kind of decadence only innocents can feel
still hoping that something in this world is real
can you feel, can we heal? jump to your heels
get off you knees, maybe we can dance it off
reel-to-reel, real to real, dust that vinyl off
sometimes you need to hear a song you know
if I die tonight I want to come back as rock & roll

~wwb

Day Break

broken, broken, broken
this world, our bond, my heart
better left unspoken
these words, our past, my part

through the wire, longing
come back, come now, come apart
these desires growing
they laugh aloud, it starts

puzzles, riddles and innuendo
these thoughts held in the dark
the light breaks through the window
casting shadows ‘cross shallow hearts

day breaks on love and longing
the contrast at last is stark
choose between belonging
and the song that holds your heart

~wwb

These Three Things

Shattered dreams and endless schemes
it all ends up unlike it seemed
at one time
brand new starts and broken hearts
and everything just falls apart
sometimes…

Faith the substance of things unseen
hope with stock in more than dreams
and love, love it will set you free
you and I could fly, if we’d only see

people fail and tears will fall
and expectations elude us all
sometimes
sometimes life can seem obscene
and what we’d all give for some self esteem
sometimes you have to face the blame
sometimes you have to deal with the shame
sometimes…

Faith the substance of things unseen
hope with stock in more than dreams
and love, love it will set you free
you and I could fly, if we’d only see

Scandalous affairs and real nightmares
it can be a cold place out there
sometimes
but I believe in a gift I received
that I once clung to like my only belief
at one time…

Faith the substance of things unseen
hope with stock in more than dreams
and love, love it will set you free
you and I could fly, if we’d only see

~wwb